So today we left for our first official vacation as a family of four. Traveling with two kids to the grocery store is stressful enough for me, so I wasn’t sure how I was going to handle a two-hour flight up to the mountains. Of course, we were packed a week ago, because I am so “details-oriented (which is really my husband’s kind of way of saying “crazy-anal”)” and so when my husband bound out of bed this morning to jump in the shower, I took the opportunity to loll around in bed for another 20 minutes. And when he came out of the shower? I announced to him that today, I am his third child and he should treat me as such… don’t expect any logical actions from me today, just lead me around by the hand. And if you knew anything about me, you’d know that this is NOT who I am ordinarily. I am a control freak. Extra emphasis on the freak part.

So we got to the airport, and I did nothing. I carried a baby and my bag and did nothing. It was glorious. I watched Pea play in the little airport playground and I changed a few diapers, but beyond that, I made no decisions and I did not take charge. Of anything.

The flight was a huge success, and I should add in here all of the compliments we received on how well-behaved our girls were. I am not going to take credit for that, because while I do have the sweetest little daughters in the world, any mother will tell you that the best-behaved children will become evil at the worst-possible moment. So as our flight landed, I said a silent “thank you” to the universe for making it such a pleasant trip.

And now, here we are, back in our hotel. Pea, Coco and I just finished taking a bath together and as we tucked the girls into their cribs in their own room, I thought to myself just how lucky I am. There are days when I just wish it was easier to get around. And there are days where I honestly think to myself, oh my God, what have I done? I am human, motherhood is a daunting role to play. Rewarding yes, but also terrifying and exhausting. But now, I sit here in our little living room and I can hear Pea talking to her little sister, telling her “daddy take a nap now and mama take a nap now” and I can’t imagine any place I’d rather be than in this little hotel suite in the mountains of the West. I am one lucky lady.