Wow. There are just some days that feel like they are never going to end. This was one of them. Both girls have runny – very runny – noses, and Coco has been fighting me to go to sleep for the last two hours. Her bedtime is at 7, and it’s 9 and we’ve been listening to her cry off and on for the last two hours. I finally gave her a little antihistamine for her nose, to clear her passages, because I’m assuming that is what’s keeping our normally good sleeper from turning in.

At last, silence.

Most days, we have things under control here in our home. We have a solid schedule, and everyone knows what to expect. But when I’m not feeling well, things start to slip. Like today, for instance. I’m starting to get that woozy feeling I get before I come down with something. Anything. You know, that feeling of “am I really here?” Does anyone ever feel like that? Like you look at your hand and think, “what am I? Where am I? Is this real?” I get this feeling, and it is usually a precursor to a bad cold.

I’d like to just curl up in bed for the next two days and sleep. I would like a cup of hot tea with honey and a cozy white bathrobe with a hood and some Ugg slippers and a current issue of a tabloid and one of those plug-in Sudafed menthol thingies. I am so worn down and frustrated because I feel like I’ve just been sick for the last two years. I guess that’s common when you have small kids, these colds just pass back and forth. I’m sure Pea brought this particular one home from preschool. We had parent-teacher conferences yesterday at her school and it seems like all the kids there had runny noses. But really, is this how it’s going to be for the next ten years? Will I be marking my life by my colds? Runny noses, coughs, headaches? Sore throats? I don’t really handle being under the weather very well, especially since it feels like I’ve been sick forever. It’s depressing.

I don’t enjoy feeling so ho hum. Ho hum.

PS This stuff by California Baby really does help…